Absent..

Di maka blog. Hindi dahil walang oras kundi dahil napakaraming oras...ngayon,..para sa iba't ibang bagay.

It has been a while,...no longer than that..since the last time I felt connected...to myself. dahil siguro sa tengga ako ngayon.

Madalas ko pa ring iwasan actually,...being connected to my soul. Feel my natural state..of being a human.

Magulo ba? No worries. I promised that this blog will be my land of milk and honey. The only place where there's always sun...shiny and bright.

I am really getting to it now...soon...much sooner. If not, baka maglaho na yung mga talentong ibinigay sa akin ni Lord.

I am into something but so afraid to own it...to be responsible about it. Kasi pag inatake na naman ako ng procrastination (lame..lame..lame). I don't know how to do this...I don't know...minsan...mahirap magsalita...magsulat.

I am thinking of keeping a journal aside of this blog...nakakatakot din naman...ay ewan.

Madaling araw na....tulog na ako.

Tulog....

Pag tulog ang brains....walang maisip.

Nyahehehe! Ano nga meaning non?

I'm officially 28!

The last few days was like a recollection of my past 27 years...I was able to see things better now.




What are the perks of being 28...?



- You're highly regarded as a 'more mature' person now. Nyahahah! Whatever that means.


- You're bolder...(ahuh?!)


- Attempting to be much wiser now...(and before?)


- You are ready to rock and roll!


- And you are squeezing the time...to be less looking retarded if you still wanting to act like 17.


- Coz' you are nearing to be grand 30! (Out of the calendar age! Nyahhahah)





Life is too short. I'm only 28 and I feel like I turned 40. What would I feel if I turn 30 then? So let me have some more fun.



We didn't have any grandiose celebration but I had dinner with Jovel @ Chili's instead. Bought a Selecta Ice Cream (coffee crumble flavor) and sleep over in my accommodation (you know we have a crazy set up!)

The next day was superb. We had Seafood celebration (Sinigang na danggit, binusang hipon, steamed alimasag and sa-luyang asuhos). Simple celebration really gives you ultimate joy.


Here's a few snaps of my post (coz' its the 4th na) b-day celebration with friends.

Thanks to everyone who greeted me specially my family who spend few of their bajillions to call me oerseas and greet!

Thanks everyone.

I am planning/will achieve/ will be having the best of my life...@ my best at 28!

Pre Birthday jitters...

...Is it? How do you know ifyou have pre-birthday jitters?

Here's how:

1. When you try to jog (3 km under the hot sun...) @ 11am!
2. When you try to jog @ 11am without sun block and waited for a free bus ride after feeling exhausted (..and/or dehydrated!)
3. When after frying your self under the 12 noon sun and decided to go to the supermarket for laundry soap and downy.
4. When you feel exhausted and your arms are aching, walking under the hot sun, back to your house carrying big box of laundry soap and conditioner.
5. When you clean the room, take all your dirty laundry and clean your cabinet, simultaneously.
6. When you make a post (blog) out of it!

Birthday jitters....seriously!

It's end of June...

(**pic taken last January 2008)

It is the last day of June. Six months na ang natapos sa calendaryo.

Sudden thoughts coming to my head...haaah...6 months...how time flies....?

What happened to those months that passed? 2008 will be over soon...soon after another 6 months.

Its been 8 months since we send Pao back to Philippines...I miss my baby so much.

Now, 3 days more and I'll be turning 28....what happened to the past 27 years....

Malayo pa...mahaba pa...malapit na...

Yun na nga.

Start anew!

I want to avoid being sad. I want to be happy...shining, shimmering...glowingly happy. Like the ray of sunshine. Like a bright morning after the storm....like the sun.

I know I have tons of reasons to be sad. I have, yes...I could be sad everyday. I can because I could.

But I want to choose to be happy. Because yes, that too,...I can.

It's not a secret that my family collapsed few years ago. Started when my father got addicted with gambling. My mom, who still have the awful breast cancer which now I believe could be just mere muscle spasm since she was diagnosed 8 years ago and she's still alive and kicking (i'm commenting on this not on the bad way huh) and was able to still leave my father for another man. Yes, she re...not remarried...but she loved another man.

Us, siblings are all ok...which is good right. Though, my life is a bit shaky at the moment. A story which I would want to save for later....but all are ok. Nice. Ok.

My marriage is on its 'transition' stage, where we are trying to tie the last few loose ends. Yes, we are having rows, but hence ok still...coz' somehow, we found out that no amount of 'bitching' can make us turn our back to each other....because at the end....we are the only ones we have...no, i think it is because we found out that...We are Bestfriends.

Its not hard to be happy. This is what I realized after having this much awaited break. I don't go to office. No bosses nagging, breathing fire on my neck. No pressure of getting up in the morning. Its nice to have time for your self.

I have a choice whether to stay for 2 sweaty hours on the gym or being couch potato for days...I swear this is the best time of my life...aside of the fact that my daughter whom I misses so much is not with me for almost 7 months now, but yes, this is yet the best time of my life.

I could be sad yes....but I choose to be happy. It's not bad to be happy. All the smiling, all the laughing, all the adrenaline rush...the serotonin high..i'm loving it.

My late nights watching TV series. My almost-gagging Starbucks venti macchiato. Friendster search, photo upload. Walking on a very humid day. Sale sale sale!---this is happy days.

I know tomorrow could be different. But still, I will choose to be happy. I will as much as possible, I will....

to happiness!